I actually have a love-hate relationship with gaming.
- I used to steal from my dad’s wallet just to play in the nearest playstation rental place (remember those?)
- It started me poking around my computer and lead me to my understanding of computer hardware today.
- Me and my brother have spent upwards of 10,000 pesos over the course of 4+ years on internet cards and ragnarok cards as well as countless hours playing various MMO games (Ragnarok then Khan Online then Flyff then Dekaron and a bunch of other MMOs that I’m forgetting.)
- It started me into writing scripts for bots and exercised my nascent logic skills (which turned out useful for programming.)
I love playing games. But it just sucks so much of my time and attention, because it’s too interesting and I’m finding out that I’m a really competitive person (even when I claim that I’m not.) Especially if it’s a game that has infinite replayability and a grind component (e.g. most MMORPGs), I’ll be gone for a week.
I’ve been able to stave this off because I play it on a dedicated computer but mobile games are now the bane of my existence. The accessibility makes it hard to compartmentalize and it provides a “good enough” dose to tide me over.
I wish to find the middle ground. Something like, play only games on weekends. Or in the evening. Something like that. But I’m realizing that it _is_ _fucking_ _incredibly_ hard.
It’s either I don’t play at all, or I just play all the time.
And I’m slowly finding out that I might have to give up gaming altogether if I want to be at 100%.
I’m trying to come to terms with this realization.
Game over, huh?
If you follow my sister’s blog, you’ll sort of glean that we have this family problem. (Which family doesn’t, right?)
Oh, didn’t catch that? Or don’t read my sister’s blog?
Oh well, cat’s out of the bag. *shrug*
Anyway, everything that’s going on with my family is actually the least of my concerns at the moment. I’m emotionally distancing myself from the issue, because the situation really needs someone level-headed and impartial.
This is not to say I don’t have emotions – I do. I’m not bottling it up. On the contrary, I just say it to everyone I know that cares, reputation be damned. The more I tell it to other people, the less intense it becomes.
I think “peer-to-peer psychological easing” should be a thing. You heard it first here!
So, I’ve gone off my rails in the past month when it comes to managing my time.
I feel like I’ve not been contributing as well and as much as I should be.
Everything was moving and I had to settle down before I started any routines again.
So, after a month of moving around, I think I’m finally ready to fire off and pick up my speed again (which is funny, because we’re watching The Flash lately.)
Things that I want to get back on track again:
Hmm. That sounds like everything. Looks like I have a lot of things to catch up on.
echo 'gem "newrelic_rpm"' >> Gemfile.d/newrelic.rb
# create config/newrelic.yml, copy from Newrelic site
RAILS_ENV=production bundle install
A more complete installation of Apache Flood (http://httpd.apache.org/test/flood/building.html)
svn co http://svn.apache.org/repos/asf/httpd/flood/trunk flood
svn co http://svn.apache.org/repos/asf/apr/apr/trunk apr
apt-get update && apt-get install autoconf libtool libxml2-dev make libapr1-dev libaprutil1-dev
./configure --disable-shared --with-libxml2
Stopped here, as I get errors when trying to compile.
I hope this helps someone.
Note to self:
Remove devise_for in routes.rb if you’re trying to generate a scaffold of an already existing model.
Steps to replicate:
- rails g model Foo name
- rails g devise Foo
- rails g scaffold Foo –skip
This would result with the error: The name ‘Foo’ is either already used in your application or reserved by Ruby on Rails. Please choose an alternative and run this generator again.
Commenting the devise_for line in routes.rb will allow you to proceed with the scaffold.
My 1 year old nephew got sick recently and it was an instant Php 10,000 ER trip. As I build my emergency fund, I sometimes get scared that I’m just 1 hospital trip away from starting back from scratch (or worse.) *knocks on wood*
So, I asked Uniguarantee (one of our clients, an insurance brokerage firm, no website yet :(, here’s a reference ) on what my options were.
I had 3 levels that I can cover: ER, Confinement and Health Maintenance.
Continue reading “ER, Confinement and HMO Plans”
I remember the last time I’ve had panic attacks. We were new to the work, and I knew about it in theory, but did not have first-hand experience with it. This was the first time, but I gave my 100% and researched the heck out of it but the client rejected our work.
I was devastated. As a result, I kept putting off having them check our work again. The project dragged on, and as a result, is delayed by a long time.
Oddly enough, I know that it’s all in my head. That failure in one thing isn’t really a failure if I learn from it and turn it into a success.
I know that. In theory.
I’ve tried to acknowledge the fear. Many times. By calling it out.
Nobody is perfect. You can make mistakes. You’re just scared.
But I guess I still need lots of practice.