It’s not just money.

I don’t really want to post this because I believe that people do not deserve to hear about other people’s drama but I think it’s just gotten really unbearable for me. So, bear with me.

It’s been more than half a year now and I’m near broke again. This is the 5th time this year, I think. I don’t know, I’ve lost count.

 

I try to get out of the cycle and right when I’m feeling hopeful, something urgent has to be paid and I’m wiped out again.

I guess, I can only blame myself that I am where I am. Nobody really forced me to give my money to my family but nobody else is in a position to help. If I didn’t help, when I have the capacity to help, then I would hate myself.

“It’s just money, it’s just money.”, I repeat to myself but sometimes it’s gotten to the point where it’s not just money anymore.