If you follow my sister’s blog, you’ll sort of glean that we have this family problem. (Which family doesn’t, right?)
Oh, didn’t catch that? Or don’t read my sister’s blog?
Oh well, cat’s out of the bag. *shrug*
Anyway, everything that’s going on with my family is actually the least of my concerns at the moment. I’m emotionally distancing myself from the issue, because the situation really needs someone level-headed and impartial.
This is not to say I don’t have emotions – I do. I’m not bottling it up. On the contrary, I just say it to everyone I know that cares, reputation be damned. The more I tell it to other people, the less intense it becomes.
I think “peer-to-peer psychological easing” should be a thing. You heard it first here!
So, I’ve gone off my rails in the past month when it comes to managing my time.
I feel like I’ve not been contributing as well and as much as I should be.
Everything was moving and I had to settle down before I started any routines again.
So, after a month of moving around, I think I’m finally ready to fire off and pick up my speed again (which is funny, because we’re watching The Flash lately.)
Things that I want to get back on track again:
Hmm. That sounds like everything. Looks like I have a lot of things to catch up on.
A more complete installation of Apache Flood (http://httpd.apache.org/test/flood/building.html)
svn co http://svn.apache.org/repos/asf/httpd/flood/trunk flood
svn co http://svn.apache.org/repos/asf/apr/apr/trunk apr
apt-get update && apt-get install autoconf libtool libxml2-dev make libapr1-dev libaprutil1-dev
./configure --disable-shared --with-libxml2
Stopped here, as I get errors when trying to compile.
I hope this helps someone.
My 1 year old nephew got sick recently and it was an instant Php 10,000 ER trip. As I build my emergency fund, I sometimes get scared that I’m just 1 hospital trip away from starting back from scratch (or worse.) *knocks on wood*
So, I asked Uniguarantee (one of our clients, an insurance brokerage firm, no website yet :(, here’s a reference ) on what my options were.
I had 3 levels that I can cover: ER, Confinement and Health Maintenance.
I remember the last time I’ve had panic attacks. We were new to the work, and I knew about it in theory, but did not have first-hand experience with it. This was the first time, but I gave my 100% and researched the heck out of it but the client rejected our work.
I was devastated. As a result, I kept putting off having them check our work again. The project dragged on, and as a result, is delayed by a long time.
Oddly enough, I know that it’s all in my head. That failure in one thing isn’t really a failure if I learn from it and turn it into a success.
I know that. In theory.
I’ve tried to acknowledge the fear. Many times. By calling it out.
Nobody is perfect. You can make mistakes. You’re just scared.
I sometimes get asked “As a programmer, how much is my per hour rate?” or in another form “What’s my market value?”
The simple answer to this is that your market value is whatever price you agree to get paid for. That sounds like very passive so I’ll rephrase it.
Anything’s value, according to a market, is the highest price someone is willing to buy it at and the lowest price someone is willing to sell it at. It’s what we call the market clearance.
Your value is whatever price you agree to sell yourself at. If your price is above market clearance, then you might be overpriced. If your price is below the market clearance, then you are underpriced.
I would argue that on a personal level, the market clearance should not matter much on fields where there are massive demand and not enough supply (e.g. programmers). The market can usually bear the price.
Then the matter of market value becomes agreeing upon a price and that increasing your market value is simply agreeing to a price higher than your current.
Setting a higher price is simple, but not easy. What makes it so hard to ask for more?